The search for success
I was told since my childhood to search for success right at the moment when understanding curve balls and intertwines strands by strands with competition. My eyes squint and my stomach reels at the thought that someone okaying my decisions is all that should matter. It doesn't seem like it matters if the totality of my belief says that life should be worth more than a few crumbs or that a baby’ life is worth more than a woman working 9 to 5, beating success at its game. Maybe I need to retrace my life in order to grasp the total chaos that striving for literal understanding has brought into my life. Okay maybe, the answer lies in some competition– Last night at the public relations student meeting, I froze at a competition the question, whether interning should be scrapped from being life. All I could think of was fuck! I was blank. Okay! I also thought about successfully showing I understood the words that spewed out. I lost the election because I was blank. Totally. Success h...